Aw, don't feel bad. You shouldn't say that you've failed at life. You can still get into a good school and get a great education. Just keep working as hard as you are and you'll be fine :)

Thanks 4 the supportTT. I needed that. Feeling a little better. By the way - today I discovered THE KOREAN NAME JUNG IS A MALE ONE__o__. I thought it was unisexTT.

So, yesterday was my first day of work. I'm a bagger. But apparently baggers do more than just bag... A few times I forgot it was my turn to go out into the lot and get the shopping carts. Then Steve would come in pushing four or five at a time and I'd be like "Oh shit... I'm supposed to be doing that." It's actually pretty nice. They all act like they've known me for years and it makes it easier for me. And see as how this is my first actual job, it's even better. Steve's been really helpful, thank the gods he was there, I kept forgetting so many things. Now, this is what makes my day three time better. On occasions I'll send and email to voice actor Vic Mignogna. And he of course, the nice guy that he is, response back. So we'll talk for a bit through emails. I asked him if he ever listens to any of the Japanese bands that play music in the animes he voices for and he said he Loves, not likes, but Love Ready Steady Go. This makes my love for him even greater.

Keeping my finger crossed - go you :!: I`m sure you`ll handle the job^^.

So none of the people I met yesterday were in today. But everyone I met today was kind of nice. Two girls especially... however I only remember Amy's name. My feet are killing me. I worked six hours and sat down twice. I'm sure I have no room to complain really, but they freakin' hurt.

Things can certainly be better. I've had something happen recently that has just completely thrown my mind into it's own little limbo. Caring and loving someone is completely pointless. It's just completely impossible to deal with 99.9% of the time. You try to understand the other person and when you think you do, they completely throw you for a loop and you're left with nothing but pain. I've been through this more times than one. It's completely insane. Anyway, I'm still working on my story. Not finished yet.

How many more chapters do you have left to go? With good comes bad. It's a vicious cycle but you have to work through it. There isn't always going to be happiness, but there isn't always going to be pain. Getting into the whole topic, I think I really do like this kid at work. Like my stomach starts to act up when I see him and I know for a damned fact that isn't normal. I also don't want to like him because I don't know anything about him, so I'm not even sure how I could like him to begin with. I've said this before, not here, but I have. I'm more certain of it now though than before. I actually was upset because he wasn't working today.

I have two chapters left to write. I talked to youko mama last night (By the way, she told me to tell you and Mel "Hello"). She gave me the week off from working on the story. She said I was in the need for a break from is. She told me to work on something else, something fun, or watch a movie, watch some anime, or not write anything at all. Then, next week, she wants me to work on the story and get it done by the end of the month. Which could be possible. My brain has been mush for a few days and hasn't felt like concentrating on anything. My life is about to completely change. I haven't told him yet, he keeps going back and forth between his work and our conversation. But I have accepted his offer. I told youko mama last night about it and she, like the mommy she is, gave me the positives of the offer, whereas I was thinking about the negatives. I always do that. My mind is nothing but negativity. She told me to accept his offer and leave. So, that is exactly what I'm going to do. Yep, Koto, it sounds like to me that you like him. All I can say is, good luck.

That sounds good. The story has just about been driving you insane trying to finish it, so a break is always good. Youko mama is so smart (Yay! it's been so long since i've seen her). So you've got it just about figured out and your going to do it then? I hope this really works out for you. I'm sure you'll be much happier when you get out of there. yes... it does sound a lot like that... i wish myself some luck too.

Yeah. I'm about to pull my hair out because of it. So, I've been looking for pics for character hairstyles for her to use as reference points. I'm using one of Takeshi Kaneshiro's styles as my main male character. :) I don't know. Now, I'm beginning to change my mind. I guess I'm scared.

I like Takeshi Kaneshiro. I remember the first time I saw him in Returner. He was awesome. It's okay to be scared. I understand you kind of would be. This is a big step after all.... That's why I told you to think it through and take your time. The pros and the cons....not just the cons though.

Takeshi is a hottie. There's no doubt about that. I saw Returner the other night and he looked really really good. He's an awesome actor. And his eyes... Goodness... Youko mama had to give me the pros. I kept thinking about the cons. But all I have to do, really, is get my license. If I can get that, I'm all set... Sorta.

This place is like dead... we need to bring it more people.... because i'm bored online.... the end